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Name:XaViEr Tan
Age:15
D.O.B:18/09/1991
GenDer:male
Email:craptalker3@hotmail.com
school:adp,CCHY



listening to music,
sleeping,
chilling with frenz,
eating,
chatting with frenz



backstabbers,
DURIAN(no offence),
liars,hackers,
just ppl up to no good



To DIe(but let death find me..not i find death)
a better life..



My dEaR jIeZ
ShErMaInE
TiFfaNy JiEz
KelLy
RuI WeI
Yi LuaN
Li Qi
SHauNA
EmILy
OlIvIa
AmEs
LiMmIn
JiNGwEnnS
ShIMin
SuSaN
ReBEcCa
MelLisSa
CaRiNA
DaRyL Mei



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August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
March 2007
August 2007

things that happened
things yet to heppen

As you sit in silence,
Wondering why
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.
When you've been hurt,
And can't believe what they've done
If you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.
If a close friend hurts you,
And you don't understand
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.
Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I'm here for you.

I try to be nice, but you just laugh.I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.Help me, what am I doing wrong?I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,knowing your friendship isn't mine.

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness.It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ...Yet finds no direction.My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness.It yearns to find warmth and happiness ...Yet it somehow eludes me.My eyes seek out visions in times of want.They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ...Yet they cannot see the light.My ears listen earnestly in times of silence.They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ...Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me.My arms reach out frantically in times of despair.They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ...Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap.My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude.It poses intense questions that demand answers ...Yet there are none to be found.
***My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion.It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ...And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact.

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

yoZ!!today i pon school...very boring wad go sch today...uu noe why?cuz got that fucking mr philip ng boon yeow ma...dun wanna see his face..his stinky mouth n every part of his body...3 periods man!!aint tat boring!yarhs so pon lors...later then i go the cip shit...dunno collect newspaper stuff...mr yip ask then just say wake up late then just come for the cip stuff lors...he wan prob into the matter then prob lors..i oso dun care...pon oso quite shuang larhs...no need go sch...stay at frens hse play maple...hahas...but sian got server stuff during 930-1130..why so suay??ya lors...but nvm larr...just find other stuff to do larr...like blogging hahas...life getting more n more sian sia...dunno how to live on...go home oso sian...mum n stepdad keep quarreling,,,then go home become object for anger frustrater...l0ls dunoo wads that..but i just hate them like tat...if they cannot get along...why marry larr?waste my fucking time need come stay at boon lay cuz its my stepdad hse..just to listen them quuarrel??wtf larr..i sleeping pig wan sleep derhs..but then become everyday need 530 wake up...so tired larr..haiz...sad things aside man...must be happie always..hahas..no mood blog lerhs...stop here liaoz...

haiz...i kinda find my ear quite ma fan lehz...now change to ear stick liaoz...took out the stud yesterday...take out that time quite pain larr...hahas...but now come sch very troublesome...teacher keep asking take out...today oso..mdm samboo ask me take out lorrs...then got diff putting it back...cuz i noob ma...dunno how to put back the thing...haiz...yarhs...i today can blog oso cuz i use library comp ma...i cheat derhs...ppl nv use i use lorss...hahas..so yarhs...cannot use comp at home ma...no internet...so can only go fren hse use...sian rites...i really wan get internet lors..at home very boring..NOTHING TO DO!!very boring...if i get net i pia maples lors...lvl 35 fire mage wan chiong derhs but become no mood cuz cannot train properly...so lazy to play...hahas...wait until i can play long then i chiong lors...hahas...anyways...todays lesson very sian...sleep in class lots of times nia..hahas...k stop here lerhs..need stop liaoz...XD

yeah great day yesterday man!!went to the beach with becky,norman,shi min,emily,yuexian...well lazy to type all names larr...hahas...fun man...1st time go beach so fun...hahhas...become chaotah liaoz lors...l0ls...well fer today rites...i just got a ear piercing!!first time sia...dun wanna be like my cousin pierce liaoz then go scratch...after tat the thing infected sia...eee disgusting...ya i think i just carefull lors...but i like blur blur sia...just hope nth goes wrong...wun der larr...i so lucky one..hahas l0ls...i think i 4 days later or maybe 5 then take out the stud larr...stop here lors...go do some stuff..hahas...well someone ask me to continue so i continue...hahahs..yeah so firstly i reached harbourfront 1st derhs...reached at like 1150 man...so early sia..hahas..but nvr mind larr..then we went to meet shi min n emily lorss...took bus to sentosa lerhs...chose to go siloso beach lors...wad we do there??well 1st we went cycling while becky went tanning...hahahs...then dunno wad becky say wan go town...hahhas...but we still stay on until like 6 man...after tat more fun...becky went to sea...then my frens ask me go oso lors...then just go lors...i ask norman company me..but he dun wan...i manage to persuade him at least stand at the shore lors...he say ok...so after i got in the waterr...i splashed water at him larr..he got so wet tat he jump in oso...hahas...lols then we splashed water at each other lors...like small kid ehs??hahas...but who cares?as long euu having fun...nth else matters!!yea...hmmms...then we oso poured san dat each other...backy say good fer skin larr...heess...CENSORED FOR A WHILE...hahas...so its getting late n we decided to go home lerhs...anyways its getting late liaoz lors...so yarhs...cmon larr...i reached home late larr..815....kena scolding by mama...but aiya dun care larr...scold scold lors...i dun give a dam!

haiz received some sad news...nothing i can do anyway...dun wanna tell wad news is tat larr...shes sad..but i dun wan her to be sad lehz...haiz...but still...nothing tat i can do lehz...tats all i can say here larr...boo...